"Just Fix Your Aim and Begin"

Oh, how to begin?


This is what I have been asking myself for the past few days (or has it been weeks?)
I have felt blocked.
My mind chaotic.
My routines disrupted.
My beloved discipline lax.
The trusty old mind trend of, "not good enough" creeping in.
But I must.


I must, "fix my aim and begin."


So.
Here I am. 
Thoughts a little scattered.
Desk a little messy.
Mind a little cluttered.
But I am here anyway. 
Showing up for myself. 
And for you.


I had this thought this morning that we must do not just what feels good or right, but we must do what saves us.  What saves us from ourselves and thus, makes us strong and vital for the world.  You see, for me, every time I put a pen in my hand and have my notebook there in front of me and that pen hits that paper I feel like I wild goose landing after the long journey home.  My body relaxes as the pen skims the paper.  And I begin to let go.  Let go of myself and my fears and my dreams...all of it.  Bit by bit; word by word.  So I will continue.  I will not wait for my mind to clear or to get enough sleep; I will not wait until I get my desk organized or until I write a comprehensive list of all that I must get done; and I will not allow a change in my routine to stop me from that which saves me.  I will rework my day and I will, "fix my aim and begin."


(The quote "fix your aim and begin" comes from: http://kripalu.org/blog/thrive/2014/01/23/the-second-pillar/?utm_source=Thrive&utm_medium=post&utm_campaign=012314CopeBook)