Outdated

Oh, dear blog.  How I have missed you.  I am not one for excuses, but life has felt a little messy lately.  Literally.  The floor is messy and mushy.  Our sleep is messy and unpredictable.  My writing - messy and inconsistent.  And oh, the laundry!  Messy.  And so, amidst this messiness, I have not found room for you.  And part of me  - an old part of me - wants to feel guilty.  It beckons, "come on!  Let's feel guilty!  We know what guilt looks like and feels like."  This guilt is like an old, ratty sweater.  I used to keep old, ratty sweaters.  Now I throw them away.  And this too I will do with my guilt.  It is not a good protector from the elements and, as the Dali Lama so aptly put it, "it is outdated."